when i think of you 

i lose my breath 

then i find it as if it was never gone 

like fumbling for the keys 

while they're in the ignition 

or looking for my phone while it's in my hand 

like im about to go on stage to sing for the first time 

at a junior high evening concert 

in fort saskatchewan 

scared shitless 

vulnerable 

about to vomit 

my late lunch ready for a negotiation 

the deal is done 

id rather throw up than be anywhere else 

love takes guts